Archive | February, 2011

my head is spinning

28 Feb

I dont know why but i feel that im a mess.

Not literally but my thoughts, they are in a mess.

Or maybe yes, i am in a mess. It is like i dont know who i am anymore. Who am i? What kind of a person am i? What values do i hold on to? Sometimes i dont know why i act the way i do, i wonder after my actions. What did i really want, is it just nonsense so that…i dont know

I can be stubborn and it is not fair. I know it is not fair yet i take advantage of the situation. I let myself think i know it all, but i really dont. I dont know. I think i am being a good person, but am i?

Oh dear, all this talk is making me worse.

Could it be the stress making me talk this way? I sound like a lunatic. I have alot to do and i dont know when to do it.

I dont want to go there, can i just not go? Why must i go? There is nothing wrong there but i just dont want to go. Or maybe its my subconcious telling me not to go but hiding the reason from me, leaving me to make wild guesses.

Sometimes i wonder if im ok up there. haha…if i have no one to talk to i think …

I think something is happening…i dont know what

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Eventually we went there :)

25 Feb

   

Yea we were so ready for a picnic and a whole day of fun! We packed sandwiches and water plus cool drinks. At the entrance, the lady asked Mr Q what it was that he was carrying and said we werent allowed to bring in outside food.

Urm, ok…so i had to go out back. She said we can keep them in the lockers. We sauntered to the lockers with unwilling hearts only to discover it costs $2 per hour, $4 for 2 hours, $6 for 3 hours, $10 for more i think and the whole day. What do you expect right?  We were still in Singapore after all and nothing is FREE or CHEAP.

Thus, we decided to eat our lunch, it being 11.30am and almost lunch time anyway. We got to a shady area behind that big fat green rabbit on display and munched on our sandwiches, drank a whole bottle of water. We transferred the rest of the food into the backpack and non food items into the carry on bag, just in case they checked again. We dont have to lie 🙂 We also went to another ticket scanner, who surprisingly didnt ask what was in the bags. If only we knew!

Nothings loss so its ok 🙂

Off we went snapping photos and enjoying the rides all around!

         

 The roller coaster rides were a whole lot of fun!!! The blue one was ‘funner’ as there were the 360 degrees twist! I did feel a little weak after it but i didnt even tell Mr Q or he would not allow me to go on other rides. There were two other roller coasters but not that scary.

And then, guess where we went next?

Ancient Egypt where we revisted some of the pharoahs of Egypt who recognised us from our visit there to their homeland. We so haughtily called fake to the many of the statues there, such show offs! haha, we enjoyed the ride though it was not at all like when in Egypt. There was treasure hunters where we sat in this old fashion vehicle and went around the place and saw fake animals.

      

    

Here, i remembered a dear friend, Adilah who love dinosaurs. There was a water ride where they sold ponchos for $2 each and we were the few stingy and stubborn people who didnt want to buy even thought they warned us that we’d be soaking wet. We didnt believe them. Well i think it depends on where you sit. If possible, bring your own poncho, if you have. I recall it being wet only 2 times during the ride, otherwise it was pretty relaxing ride, it is the ancipation and the build up which made us excited.

Off we went to FAR FAR AWAY!

There we saw the prettiest castle ever, the real castles are never so pretty. They usually look like they would collapse anytime. This is how it looks like in Adilah’s dream world of course. Inside, we watched SHREK 4D show! Nice nice 🙂 Mr Q’s favourite thing at USS.

         

magnifying the simple things in life

19 Feb

It felt great, we spent the day just relaxing.

We sat. We ate. We read. Together separately.

friends galore!

17 Feb

 

I had a pleasant and wonderful time with my girlfriends. I totally needed this, so thank you Eli for coming and just calling me and making me go meet you guys. I miss all these! I miss having friends to go out and chill and hang out, like i used to have. I think this is just the time when your friends get busy with work and family etc.  and yes, Koi was there, just great having her around.

When a baby is born, the most  important people in their lives are their caregivers, mostly parent and grandparents. As they start to reach toddler age, they find comfort in having friends to play with but at the end of the day, it is back to their parents, their protectors against the harsh world. Now that they are much older to make their own decisions of which friends is better and start going out with friends because their poor parents are too boring or busy. Friends become the most important people in their lives even to the extent to go against, their once protectors and the people whose love for them is endless and abundant. Till one day in adulthood when friends’ worth just dont appear much anymore, or now lesser than parents. Have i reached this stage?  

Simply put,

Childhood – parents >>> friends

Teenager  and young adulthood – parents <<<<<<<<<< friends

Middle adulthood and late adulthood – parents/family >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>friends

Maybe im in a balance as i still feel the need for friends. I still need my friends!

Also, I do love my family much more than before.

   

With mixed feelings

11 Feb

I type.

I am not sure if this is the right decision, but like Mr Q said that if it is meant to be then it will be. I tried my best, i think though i have troubles defining what is best.

It is a small community, i recognised around 4 people when i was there, is that a good thing? Perhaps then i am not alone, Insyallah if i get to be there. Ameen.

Funny isn’t it when you mentally prepare yourself and this time i actually felt butterflies in my tummy, i think for the first in my life was i that nervous. I wasnt even nervous about getting married. Hehe… As i was saying, i prepared myself but after some time, i realised how informal it was and i started to relax. It became clear to me, all i can wish for is the best.

I never imagined it would be this place.

I will post again when it is confirmed, Insyallah. 

*Due to my secretive nature, i just tend to be this way* 

 

                                                                          

لَّا إِلَهَ إِلَّا أَنتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِينَ

                                                       ” La Ilaha IllAllah Anta Subhanka Inni Kuntoo Min-al-Zalamin ” .

 
فَسَتَذْكُرُونَ مَا أَقُولُ لَكُمْ
وَأُفَوِّضُ أَمْرِي إِلَى اللَّه
إِنَّ اللَّهَ بَصِيرٌ بِالْعِبَادِ
[Momin 40:44] “And soon the time will come when you will remember what I now say to you; and I entrust my tasks to Allah; indeed Allah sees the bondmen.”

Leonidas – Fresh Belgian Chocolates

10 Feb

A photo taken on Mr Q’s trip. I think he likes this little statue 🙂

   

Random pics III

9 Feb

 

Wishing all my Chinese friends, a very happy Chinese New Year!

Wishing all my non-Chinese friends, a Happy Holidays!

I had a super long holiday which i spent watching alot of TV because Starhub gave us all the channels for free during this festive period and just had to watch. Nice movies, some. Mr Q came back in between the holidays and was just too tired, perhaps it is jet-lag from the super long flight. Hmm….*sigh*

On a sweet note, he got me something from his trip. *next post* hehe

Random pics again II

8 Feb

 

Delicious, delicious cupcakes!

Random pics again ;)

7 Feb

This is a random photo of garlic bread tidbits i bought and shared with tutees 🙂